My weight loss journey Topic

U1190304930 06/27/21
Hello everyone! I would like to share with you all my weight loss journey and would like some feedback on whether or not it is the best method? I had my first baby 6 weeks ago, and I gained nearly seventy pounds in the process. And my self esteem suffered a huge blow because I used to have a hot body just by being young; and people at work would make comments to me like ‘oh look at you! You’re so big now! Baby is making you hungry huh’ and I would laugh it off but it really hurt my self esteem and I know people are saying it to make themselves feel better. And six weeks later, I lost 40 pounds, but I still need to lose 25 more pounds to go back to my hot body, and I am confident in my ability to achieve that goal before the year is over. It actually was not difficult for me to lose the 40 pounds in the six weeks. The first 3 weeks after giving birth I drank only clear zero salt soup with meats and veggies to get rid of all the excess fluid in my body and I lost 30 pounds in the process; and when I ate the bad food I used to enjoy, I feel grossed by it. The next three weeks I lost 10 more pounds, I was eating regular healthy food that included all food groups, in smaller portions; however, my trick was I watched endless videos of morbidity obese people binge eating on YouTube, not to feel better about myself by watching fat people, but to feel genuinely disgusted by unhealthy food. I would intentionally traumatize myself with the YouTube videos on a daily basis to consume less and be no longer seduced by unhealthy food/large portions. I would manipulate my brain into thinking foods like pizza or a Big Mac would taste like if the obese you tuber chewed it up, spit it out, and fed it to me. I was telling my friend who is a dietician my method, and she told me that it was “an unhealthy relationship with food” and I’m thinking, why the hell do I have to have a healthy relationship with food? As long as I’m getting all my food groups, vitamins and nutrients while keeping my caloric intake low without driving myself crazy with cravings, it’s fine right? I think the way I manipulate my brain is a little sick and twisted, but physical health wise I’m doing ok. I would love some feedback please. And I apologize if I offended anyone who suffered from binge eating disorder/obesity in the past.

My weight loss journey