Eating disorders. Topic

Lostandlosing95 09/01/12
Yes I know, this is quite a "hush hush" topic.
And frankly I think it should be addressed. Currently, I'm trying to slowly recover from an eating disorder because of some recent serious health defects. I stopped submitting my weight on here because I'm trying to not weigh myself as much. Weighing myself can make me feel like the biggest failure and was stunting my recovery, so I'm shunning the scale. Just until I take back control of my life a little more. Last time I weighed myself I was 97lbs.
Note, that this is over twenty pounds underweight for my height, leaving me with a BMI of around 15.7.
I am not interested in gaining back that full twenty pounds, or putting myself in an impatient program. Been there, done that. It makes things worse for me.
But I am trying to gain about 8lbs of solid muscle and maybe some fat by doubling my normal intake, taking my vitamins, and avoiding fasting, binging, purging or laxative use. A self-help type thing.
It's not a walk in the park. It's a struggle everyday. Only a different kind of struggle than what most people normally experience.
To those out there with any eating disorder, obesity, bulimia, binge disorder, or anorexia, rescue is possible. Don't let it get too far.
And for those out there trying to be healthy or lose weight, please maintain a sense of hope for yourself, love who you are.

Eating disorders.